It's amazing how quickly life can change once you make the decision to just let it. I wanted out of my miserable marriage. It was no longer a matter of if I would leave, but of when. I felt guilty and terrified. As justified as I felt after almost nine years of fighting and resenting, I hated myself for what I was about to do. That was four years ago.
From being tormented by guilt and anger to finding love and peace, all because I am learning to let go of control and fear, to allow instead of make. I slowly came to the realization that happiness isn’t mine to make. It can actually happen without having to try so hard, without having to achieve perfection. And the happiness I find is a hell of a lot better than any I could've ever made. This blog documents that journey and the results of the conscious decision I make every day to let go, allow and accept.
Who says a balance has to be delicate? Happiness shouldn't be that difficult to achieve, or so precarious once you've found it. I no longer walk a fine line. No more treading lightly. No more eggshells. The line I walk now is strong and wide – wide enough for a loving family to walk with me.